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| May 21, 2021

Lady Gaga speaks out on being raped, left pregnant at 19

Juanique Tennant

Juanique Tennant / Our Today

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Lady Gaga sings the US National Anthem during the 59th Presidential Inauguration at in Washington, U.S., January 20, 2021. (File Photo: Saul Loeb/Pool via REUTERS)

Pop superstar Lady Gaga has spoken out about a traumatic experience she endured in her teenage years which resulted in her being the victim of sexual abuse and unwanted pregnancy at the age of 19.

The Grammy award-winning singer relayed her harrowing experience on the premiere episode, of Prince Harry and Oprah Winfrey’s new docuseries The Me You Can’t See, which aims to tackle the stigma surrounding mental health.

Gaga, who spoke through tears, recounted the moment a music producer who she chose not to name, demanded she take her clothes off or face the consequence of having her music burned.

“I was 19 years old, and I was working in the business, and a producer said to me, ‘Take your clothes off’.”

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“I was 19 years old, and I was working in the business, and a producer said to me, ‘Take your clothes off’,” she recalled.

“And I said no. And I left, and they told me they were going to burn all my music. And they didn’t stop. They didn’t stop asking me, and then I just froze and I just … I don’t even remember.”

According to the Poker Face singer, she was diagnosed with PTSD years after the incident when she went to the hospital for chronic pain.

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“First, I felt full-on pain, then I went numb. Then I was sick for weeks and weeks and weeks and weeks after. And I realised it was the same pain I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on the corner, at my parents’ house, because I was vomiting, and sick,” Gaga explained.

She furthered: “The way that I feel when I feel pain is how I felt after I was raped. I’ve had so many MRIs and scans. They don’t find nothing, but your body remembers.”

Gaga went on to detail how everything came to a head when she had a breakdown from which she took years to recover.

“I had a total psychotic break, and for a couple years, I was not the same girl,” she revealed.

Referencing her impulses towards self-harm, she stated: “It’s a really very real thing to feel like there’s a black cloud following you wherever you go, telling you that you’re worthless and should die…”.

Now on the road to recovery, Gaga said her process of healing involves “trying to make sure I give back with that experience, instead of, I don’t know, locking it away and faking it”.

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